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She still has no name…

I realize this won’t really be a HUGE problem until the hospital kicks us out and we need to choose a name so we can leave… but she still has no name. And I’m being induced tomorrow morning.



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Getting Nervous…

I’m getting nervous.

Wednesday (today is Monday) we’re scheduled to arrive at the hospital at 7:30am to begin the induction. I’m so nervous. Am I making the right decision? I trust my doctor, completely, when she says that she feels comfortable inducing any time after 39 weeks. I’ll only be exactly 40 weeks (well, 40 based on the ultrasound, 39w5d based on my LMP). I trust that Snowdrop is ready to come out and that we haven’t flaked on the due date by a month. I’m worried that getting the Pitocin will be so painful that I’ll have to get the epidural. Last labor, I got the Pitocin and the epidural and hardly remember a thing after that point. My brain/consciousness doesn’t mix well with painkillers. And after I got the P/E, my labor essentially stopped progressing and Juniper freaked out and I had to get a c-section. But I’ve read so much from other women who weren’t progressing, got the epidural, and went from 5cm to 10 cm in two hours! What will happen this time around? I do not know. I hope I get a little Pitocin, dilate to a 10, and am able to push Snowdrop out instead of getting a c-section.

Am I doing the right thing? :/

I got a fortune in a fortune cookie the other night that read “Lucky you make this choice. Everything comes out for the best”. So… that’s a good sign, right? Slightly reaffirming, I suppose. 🙂

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The End is Near!!!

I went to my doctor yesterday for my 39 week appointment. First of all, I can’t believe it’s been 39 weeks… I can’t believe I’ve made it THIS FAR… It’s so awesome and strange at the same time! 🙂

Everything was normal as usual. Good heartbeat, measuring fine, no real complaints from anyone. WELL… other than the fact that I weigh 152 pounds. I believe it’s a combination of a couple things: the large pasta lunch I ate prior to my appointment, the $2.50 gallon of Chocolate Edy’s Ice Cream calling out to me at Target this weekend, and being on the receiving end of many gifts of Christmas Cookies. 🙂 It’s my fault, I should not have eaten all those cookies… and I probably should have refrained from all the delicious food we’ve been eating this week as well.

I’d say that I’ll stop eating cookies until the baby is born… but we all know that would be a lie. In fact, I intend to do as I please (but not go overboard) until next Wednesday. My doctor said that anytime after 39 weeks, she feels comfortable inducing and that if I wanted to go ahead and schedule one we could do that! I left the appointment and ran some errands and within an hour had decided that yes, I wanted to schedule an appointment! I’m really ready to have this baby and I’m confident that the baby is mature enough to be born. After having twins at 35w5d with very, very, very minimal health issues… I do feel that Snowdrop is ready. So after discussion with Hubby and my In-Laws on the best time for them to watch Junie & Mags… we decided December 30th, next Wednesday, is the day! It’s my original due date (based on the ultrasound; based on LMP it’s Jan 1st but I’m super irregular so that could be wrong anyways…).

I can’t believe I’m being induced!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m SUPER nervous about it. I really hope it all goes well, smoothly, and that I’m able to have a VBAC afterall. I’m nervous that I’ll tear and ruin myself… but I’m more nervous to have another c-section. It wasn’t the worst experience in my life – but I REALLY don’t want to do it again. It was truly more the drugs than anything else associated with it. The morphine, the epidural, the after-surgery drugs… just not my thing and I really hated the way it made me feel. I really hated the way I felt on them… I can hardly remember anything that happened after I got the epidural… and the morphine? Yikes. Never again – fingers crossed, of course! It was just really scary to me. Drugs are scary.

[Yeah, I know I’ve written plenty about my past (and likely future) experiences with marijuana… and I know plenty of people would care to disagree with my views on it… but marijuana is completely different than morphine, etc. Marijuana isn’t any more of a drug than alcohol or tobacco. Morphine and all those after-surgery drugs I had to have, however, are scary. Ah, another post for another day.]

ANYWAYS…. I’m super nervous about the VBAC but I’m SUPER EXCITED about bringing Snowdrop home. It will be exhausting to have a newborn but so nice to have her out of my belly and into my arms. Recap: I’m getting induced on Dec 30th, that’s this coming Wednesday… unless she decides to make an appearance earlier than that. I’d really like for her to be born on December 27th – it seems like a fine day to be born. Just long enough after Christmas to allow for a day of rest between holiday festivities and then birthday festivities, right?

The end of this pregnancy is truly in sight now… I know I am blessed to be able to carry my own child in my very own womb & I’m very thankful for being able to experience the miracle that is LIFE – but it’s time for her to come out! 🙂

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Nursery is… finished? And I’m worried about Christmas Eve…

So… the roofers are coming some time next week – YAY!!! If you missed that part of our lives, you can catch up by clicking here. Once they come and fix the roof, then we can fix the ceiling in the nursery & be done with it!

Other than the roof/ceiling issue, and needing to paint the bathroom up there – the nursery is finished!!! Whoohoo!!!! We hung up the alphabet wall cards I bought off of Ebay – they look like this but because I got them on Ebay -> it cost me WAY LESS than what other websites were selling them for. Go me! 🙂 Juniper & Magnolia have the same alphabet cards in their room… I hesitated for a while about buying the same thing for Snowdrop’s nursery – but I looked and looked and couldn’t find alphabet cards that fit the room, or that I loved so much. So…. they all have the same alphabet in their rooms. Which, I guess is kind of nice in a way. It ties them all together? Anyways…

SO we hung up the alphabet cards, I’ve washed all the blankets, all the newborn to 3 month clothes, put all the clothes away in the dresser… what else… I’ve pretty much done everything I need to do before she arrives. She’s not coming any time soon is what I’m thinking. Now, if I hadn’t done any of these things yet – I’m pretty sure she would have been here weeks ago. Isn’t that how it works?

I kept going back and forth about her “take-home” outfit – it’s important to me to have this ready this time because last time we had to take the girls home in their hospital commissioned undershirts. We had forgotten to bring their take-home outfits when we came back to pick them up – so I don’t want to screw that up this time! 🙂 So I had gone back & forth about what to put her in. It’s cold out. She needed a cozy outfit. I settled on a pair of these fleecy pink pants (that J & M had never gotten around to wearing as newborns…) and an alphabet onesie (I’m not obsessed with the alphabet, I swear). The onesie is short-sleeved, so she’d need to wear a long-sleeved white onesie underneath (how very ‘skater’ of her). I wasn’t totally crazy about this but figured it would work. I went back and forth. Back and forth. I put a sleeper with footies in the bag just in case I changed my mind at the hospital about the take-home outfit. It’s cute. One of my favorites from when the girls were born… neutral yellows and greens with stars and a giraffe on it. Cute. Not… the greatest for bringing home my third little girl. I’m really NOT a pink kind of girl. I prefer greens and purples on my daughters… but something was just not girly enough for me in these other outfits I picked. SO. I was at Target last night and they had a three pack of long-sleeved onesies. Two of the three were pink (one hot, one soft) but the third was a perfect green with little flowers on it – not super girly, but girly enough to not make me gag. So I bought them. I figure I can use the other two long-sleeved onesies for a month or so, and it being Winter, it’ll be nice to have some long-sleeves that aren’t just plain undershirt white. SO, she’ll wear the green long-sleeved onesie with the pink pants and probably fuzzy white socks. (I packed three pairs of socks in the bag… I’m terrible at packing light.)

I’m so boring. Sorry if the above bored you. *sigh*… The ramblings of this pregnancy are beginning to drive me nuts.

Moving on… Christmas is coming!

I’ve never been a huge fan of “opening presents’ so Christmas has never been SUPER delightful for me. I want to be a movie star (yes, still haven’t given up that dream yet!) but I can’t open presents in front of people without feeling strange? Call me weird. I do! 🙂

So Christmas Eve we’ll be heading to Hubby’s parents’ house for dinner and festivities. There will be lots of family there. Some are flying in… on planes… with germy people. Some work in hospitals… with germy people. Some are just plain weird and don’t practice good hygeine… and others, well. Others have really undisciplined boys.

I’m totally worried we’re going to catch a cold, the flu, etc. I KNOW I’ll walk away with a headache from the “naughty boys”. Of course, I’ll request that no one kisses myself, or the girls. I don’t want germs unncessarily spread. I know, I know – I’m a germaphobe. I’ve admitted it before. At this stage in the game, my due date is SO CLOSE, I really can’t afford to get sick – nor can I afford for my children to get sick.

I feel like a nutso having to request people not to get too close – but I’m SO WORRIED that someone is going to be sick on Christmas Eve… and still choose to attend the festivities because, well, it’s Christmas! The worst would be if we arrived and I had to tell Hubby to help me pack up the kids back into the car so we could go home. I’d hate to be a party-pooper, and I’d hate the idea that everyone would talk about us after we left, and etc etc etc.

I don’t know what else to say about this, other than I’m aprehensive about the whole thing.

*le sigh*

And our TV broke (the picture completely went out, we still have sound but no picture). This is not a huge deal. I think the most annoying thing is that the girls don’t totally understand that it’s “broken”. I don’t mind not watching TV. It’s refreshing.

And in happier news, we finally found sconces (on Ebay!) and hung them in the main room – so my early 90’s UGLY MOTHER-F*ING sconces are gone! YAY! AND AND AND we also found a mailbox (on Ebay! for 99 cents!! 15 bucks in shipping but whatever, it was still a fabulous deal) that is big and looks fantastic on the side of our house. I’m so happy.

Now if I could just have this baby tonight so we can be home by Wednesday and not have to attend Christmas Eve with the naughty boys… 🙂

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Lost Intentions & Naughty Boys & Random Thoughts…

So I intended to write all about Thanksgiving. And about, oh, a hundred other things. And I haven’t yet. I honestly haven’t had the energy. So I’ll just stick to the randoms…

Thanksgiving was… fun! The girls ate all their turkey and pumpkin pie but could have cared less for green bean casserole and stuffing. I can’t believe they’re my kids and they don’t like GB Casserole and Stuffing. Who are they?

(Skip to the Bottom of the Post for the Random Thoughts if you don’t want to read about the Naughty Boys… cause it’s lengthy, and obviously a rant.) 🙂

Hubby’s cousins also came to dinner. And they brought their three boys with them. They are ages 3, 2, and 3 weeks. The 3-week-old was very well behaved (haha). I cannot say the same for the 3 and 2 year olds. The 2 year old is actually just a day younger than Juniper & Magnolia… anyways, so… So the boys were so… I don’t know the word. They were the worst behaved children I’ve ever seen. O. M. G. They wouldn’t sit in chairs at the dinner table and spent most of our “pleasant” Thanksgiving dinner, running around the kitchen, SCREAMING their heads off, refusing to eat food, and basically just causing minor troubles and annoyances. According to their parents (Hubby’s cousins) the boys “won’t sit in a highchair” which is why they were given chairs at the table on which to sit. Now. Here’s my problem with this. What do you mean “they won’t sit in a highchair”? They’re 3 and 2 years old. Put them in the highchair, strap them in, and VOILA! They’re sitting in a highchair. Have your children no respect for a rule? I mean, really? I know they’re young, but I don’t believe they’re too young at this point.  And sure there are times when Junie & Mags misbehave. There are times when they don’t want to eat their dinner. But those are also the times when we discipline, when we say “NO.”, when we tell them “Okay. You don’t have to eat dinner, but you do have to sit in your chair until everyone else is done.” My children don’t scream obnoxiously during dinner time. They eat their dinner.

At one point, the 3 year old climbed into my MIL’s chair while she was fixing herself seconds… so the kids parents say “Hey, get out of Aunt C’s chair” and the kid? He goes “NO.” And so the parents, instead of insisting he get out or receive a Time Out (or whatever else would have been appropriate in terms of disciplining a 3 year old), start LAUGHING. So your child talks back to you, and you laugh – good. That’ll teach him! I was taken aback. Of course, that response would never fly in our home – and you can bet our girls know better than to respond that way.

I had mentioned this next part in my post about Top 5 Memorable Moments with the Girls – Junie kept saying “Naughty Boy, Naughty Boy” at dinnertime. It was hysterical. My MIL and myself were laughing so hard under our breaths… it was too funny. See, even my 2 year old noticed what a naughty boy he was being.

So after dinner, we played downstairs and the boys were screaming, not sharing with each other, or with the girls very well… it was so nerve-wracking. So then it was time to clean up and go home. Now, our girls often need a little poking & prodding to start cleaning up but they can manage putting all the “little toys into the basket” and “helping pick up the animals”, etc… but Hubby’s Cousin’s kids? Nada. All they did was scream their blessed little heads off – and I mean tantrum screaming. It wasn’t just refusing to pick up. We’d take toys away from them – well, attempt – and they’d hold it tighter until we had to literally peel their fingers off of the toys – all of course, amidst a ridiculous tantrum. My girls were visibly shaken by all the screaming – and continued to pick up toys all the same.

I’m not trying to say “Oh, my kids are so well behaved, they’re so obedient, they’re better than thou…” but frankly – I’m just shocked that these boys were SO out of control. I mean, GEEZ – get control of your kids. That kind of behavior would never be tolerated in our house. EVER. That’s behavior that warrants a swift smack on the bottom and a minute in Time Out (although, now that my girls are 2 years old, we do 2 minutes… they’ll get 3 when they are 3, etc…).

(Disclaimer: We don’t hit our kids but there are appropriate times for a small spanking. I used to get a belt or a wooden spoon when I was a kid – so my girls are lucky we don’t think that’s appropriate. But I will say, get smacked on the bottom a few times with a belt or a spoon… and I never did whatever I had done to get that smack ever again. :))

ARGH!!!! Sorry for the rant but… it really bothers me about those boys. I just… it bothers me. I’m glad we insist on good behavior from our girls. I don’t expect them to chew with their mouths closed and have a napkin in their laps. I expect them to behave like domesticated beings and not like they’ve been raised by wolves. And that their actions will have consequences. At age two, this is limited to what a two year old will understand. Example: Pushed your sister down? You get a Time Out and if you’re not sorry when your two minutes are up – back to Time Out until you’re sorry. Mom & Dad say “Time to Clean Up or You only get ONE book before bed?” If you don’t help to clean up, you don’t get three to five books before bed – you get one.

I guess I sound like a hardass but I’m really just insistent on being consistent with teaching them how to be good girls. Sure, they’re going to be teenagers someday and slam the door in my face, and tell me they hate me – but at least I will know they had a good foundation.

Okay. Ranting done… now for the nice thoughts! 🙂

Happy, Random Thoughts…

I’m 36 weeks 2 days pregnant. I’ve never been THIS pregnant before – so this is quite new territory for me. I’m excited. And ready to meet my little Snowdrop. I had some intense false labor on Tuesday night – the night of the Full Moon. It got so bad, I had called my doctor! It didn’t intensify but for a while I was nervous that it would. Hubby threw up because he got so nervous! Haha.

The Full Moon also made us realize that we really need to pick a name for this baby – or Snowdrop will be official on the birth certificate! Our “short list” is now longer than our original short list. I think we have eight (?) names we’re contemplating. It’s such a hard decision… I’d like to at least have it narrowed down to three names before she is born – otherwise, I’m really going to have a hard time picking a name at the hospital.

Any thoughts on a 3-syllable, not very popular, preferably old-fashioned of sorts, girls name?

Yeah. I’m having trouble coming up with that one, too. 🙂

Hubby surprised me with a visit from two of my very best friends on Friday night! They drove all the way down from the Big City just to see ME for the night. And they brought the girls a few presents, which was really nice. I KNEW something was going on because Hubby kept insisting that he needed to clean the house even though he kept complaining about being so sore from Thanksgiving Football with his fraternity brothers… And he did all the guest bedsheets and towels… and kept cleaning and cleaning. He tried to tell me that nothing was going on, he just “wanted to clean” but I knew better. I’m glad my friends came down – it was nice to see them.

The day after Thanksgiving marked the two year anniversary since the last time I saw my friend, S, before she died. I know, this is not a nice happy random thought. It’s very sad. I miss her very much and I’ll always remember driving away from her, after lunch, looking in my rearview mirror, crying and trying to figure out why I had a nagging feeling I’d never see her again… I never did see her again. (She died in January, 2007. Her heart was broken. Some birth defect that was unknown because when we were babies – they didn’t have the kind of ultrasounds and tests they do now…) I should have stayed that day at the bakery and hung out. The girls were so young, they probably would have just slept in their pumpkin seats and not known the difference. If I could go back in time and stay, I would.

So it was nice to see my other bakery girls the day after Thanksgiving. It definitely brightened my day.

Hm… what else. This is turning into a long post.

I’ve been doing Sodoku every night in bed before settling in for the night. I have found it really relaxes me and helps me to fall asleep faster. I used to do Sodoku ALL the time – and got out of it for a bit. But I found an old book that wasn’t filled in recently so I started up again and am loving it.

I’m ready for this baby to come. Our roof still isn’t fixed but it will be soon. And I’m getting close to being done shopping for Christmas presents. I want to have them bought & wrapped before I go into labor. That’s a goal.

I also need to ribbon the Christmas Cards. I have no energy to do that tonight. In fact, I’m going upstairs now to do some Sodoku.

Hope everyone had a fabulous Thanksgiving. 🙂

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Down to the HomeStretch!

So last night I had lots of contractions. I didn’t call my doctor because they were so irregular but many of them were painful… most just really uncomfortable. So today I’m watching out for more contractions. Hopefully I won’t be heading to the hospital! I’m almost 32 weeks but that is still really early! :/

We weren’t really packed for the hospital, but now we are!! I got my stuff together, Hubby’s stuff together and this morning I packed Junie & Mags up for their “vacation” at Grandma’s house! I’ve got a few other things to grab from around the house but we’re pretty much ready to go!

I had one contraction this morning right when I woke up but that was over an hour ago and I haven’t had one since. I’ve felt Snowdrop moving a little bit so I’m not too worried about her. However, if I do have any more contractions like last night… then I will be calling the doctor!

Okie dokie. Off to the couch to do some serious resting… and watching of Disney Princess movies. I think we’ll start with “Rella” as the girls like to call her… 🙂

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Rain, Rain, Rain…

It’s rained nearly every day this week! I can hardly believe. The “weatherpeople” are saying that if the temperature was cold enough, we’d have more than 2 feet of snow already!!! I WISH! 🙂

So of course, today is rainy. That’s not a bad thing, I like the rain too. We’re just keeping our ears open for water dripping and periodically checking the basement. Hubby caulked (?) the sidewalk out front and added some wood (? I don’t know exactly what he did ?) to the 3rd floor window about a month ago… and we haven’t had a leak yet! Knock on wood! 🙂

I went out and bought white paint for the trim this morning. Hubby only has to do a little bit of work today so hopefully he’ll get the trim painted by the end of the weekend… I also picked up envelopes for our Christmas/Birth Announcement cards. I’m making Christmas cards without the baby’s name but I’m including a small birth announcement card in the actual envelope along with the Christmas card. Yes, homemade cards… I know. (I roll my eyes at myself.) It’s just more expensive to buy them… too expensive, in fact! If I can save $50 by doing it myself, I see no other way about it! The cards are simple. I even got my cardstock at the dollar store! I have a paper cutter so it’s easy to cut the paper down to size. I’m adding 3×5 photos to the cardstock and decorating each with a little season wish and a glitter tree. Easy. I haven’t decided yet whether or not to write each wish or photocopy it on… I’m investigating that today during naptime. During which, I will also address the envelopes. And hopefully get to work on the 2nd lampshade.

Something inside of me is telling me to get my work done ASAP… I can’t imagine it helps that Hubby commented earlier this week that the girls (Juniper & Magnolia) didn’t start moving like Snowdrop has been lately until a few weeks before they were born… does this mean Snowdrop is coming soon? :/ I hope we can get everything done in time!!! 🙂

We’ve been looking at cars and will buy one sooner than later. Boo… Hubby is keeping MY car because well, his is on it’s very last leg. My car is a 2007 Highlander, we’re the only owners so it’s in really great condition. We’re looking at getting a Suburban or a Yukon XL. We need the extra trunk space. Even the mini-vans we looked at, didn’t have enough “trunk” to hold our stuff. When we drive to the Big City in the Highlander… I mean, we are packed to the brim. There is a third seat in the Highlander but unfortunately when it’s up there’s no trunk space… so we’re settling on getting a BIG car. We figure if we even have one more kid after Snowdrop (I think we will) we’ll need the space. Might as well get it now.

Snowdrop is doing well, moving like crazy as mentioned before… I can’t believe we’re down to the homestretch! Crazy! Juniper & Magnolia are doing great! Mags actually put her hand on my belly to feel the baby… she’s been really apprehensive about doing it so I’m glad she got her hand on there. I don’t think she felt her… but it’s a step in the right direction. They really LOVE green beans. Today for lunch, they ate peanut butter sandwiches with a side of green beans. It’s so funny, then they said “Tank you geen bean”. Thank you for the green beans? Awesome. No problem, girls, you can have veggies any time. 🙂 It’s also funny, they love tomatoes and often we’ll use tomatoes as dessert to bribe them into eating their dinners…

Junie went poopie on the potty yesterday (YAY!)… we still have yet to get Mags to do it but at least she is now letting us know that she has just pooped. She used to not tell us at all and run around with poop in her pants until we could smell her and figure out she needed a new one… it’s all coming along, I guess. 🙂 No one has done pee-pee yet on the potty.

Okay. Hubby just left for work and I foresee myself needing to mediate a battle over magnetic alphabet letters… off for now! 🙂

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