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The Birth of a Snowdrop

I was scheduled for an induction on Wednesday, Dec 30, 2009. We were to arrive at the hospital at 7:30am to be admitted, start fluids, etc. I hardly slept the night before… we dropped Juniper & Magnolia off at my in-laws around bedtime and ended up staying so late that we didn’t get a chance to run by Babies-R-Us for last minute things. No biggie… and we also didn’t get to go out to dinner. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ This wasn’t in the official plans but I sort of wanted to enjoy our last night. We ended up at McDonalds. I only had a small fry as I really didn’t want to eat McDonalds before going into labor…

We also stopped at three different places for Barq’s Root Beer before stopping at a grocery store to pick up a twelve can pack. I had a major Barq’s craving and it being my last pregnant night… I wanted to celebrate with a little bubbly. ๐Ÿ™‚

When we got home we cleaned up a little, finished packing, I showered and we went to bed. Around 2am. I couldn’t fall asleep. The excitement, the nerves, the everything. I just couldn’t sleep. Eventually though, I did sleep and when my alarm went off at 6:30am – I POPPED straight out of bed and got myself ready to go! You know when you’re so excited about a day that although you’re exhausted out of your mind you can still jump right out of bed and start the day? That was one of them. To make the day even greater – It was SNOWING!!! Not a lot. But enough to cover the pavement and to satisfy my crazy love for snow. I was so happy. I wanted my little Snowdrop to be born on a snowy day…

I ate almost an entire Thomas’ English Muffin (the Cinnamon Raisin kind… yummy!), drank some water and off we went to the hospital! I drove us. I’ve mentioned before that I’m a better snow driver than good old Hubby. We arrived a few minutes late but… that was just fine. Labor & Delivery wasn’t very busy at all anyways so we were able to get settled right away.

My nurse was… FANTASTIC. A Godsend. Just what I needed. The perfect addition to my labor. I couldn’t have done it without her. I want to request her for ALL of my future births. Winnie. Oh, Winnie. She broke out into random song clips, was light and cheerful, and refused to believe I’d end up with a c-section and also insisted that we’d have our baby out by the time her shift was over (7pm). She was in a word: Magnificent!

We got our bracelets, I got hooked up to the IV, and got my cervix checked. I was no more than 1 and a fingertip. That sucked. I was really hoping I’d be a little further dilated but alas, I was not. And it freakin’ HURT when she checked me. YIKES. It never hurt when my doctor did it. Anyways…

The snow was still coming, but now it was falling faster and harder. I was so excited!

So the house doctor came in to also check me, ask questions, etc. Around 9am, they hooked me up to the Pitocin at a really low dose. Everything was going really well. I was definitely having contractions but they weren’t awful. I was sure I was going to be able to do this epidural free. YAY!!! I was also a couple more centimeters dilated after a couple hours so the house doctor conferred with my doctor and it was decided that they would break my water and see if that helped move things along.

Well. Did. It. Ever.

Within two minutes of breaking my water I was having the most INTENSE contractions I’d never had in my life. Oh. My. GOD. It was terrible. I was in pain. Ridiculous pain. It was breathtaking. I had never felt such pain before. I can’t even describe it. (Which brings me to a thought – really, that show “I Didn’t Know I was Pregnant”… I don’t buy it.) So the pain was just awful. The doctor said that there was plenty of time to get the anesthesiologist in there to do an epidural but if I didn’t want one there was no pressure to get one. I thanked her for her support and she left me & Hubby alone.

At this point, I had another contraction and asked Hubby to go get the anesthesiologist.

My contractions were coming about two minutes apart by this point. After what seemed like imminent death, the anesthesiologist arrived and began the processs of administering the epidural. Although I’ve had one before, this time was equally if not more terrifying. The idea of someone sticking a needle in my SPINE… that although the chance is rare, I could become paralyzed… the whole idea is pretty scary. So throw in RIDICULOUS contractions every two minutes – yeah. It was not fun. But after several minutes and in-between a few contractions she was able to get the epidural placed and the medicine flowing. I was golden and hardly felt a thing from then on.

She also told me a fabulous French bakery nearby to my house that just opened recently. I’ve already gone there to get Pain du Chocolat – and let me say folks, I’ve found a new little haven in the Little City to satisfy my bakery cravings. At least some of them. Croissants aplenty!!! ๐Ÿ™‚

ANYWAYS… so after the epidural I could stand to live again and so I did. Winnie put me in all sorts of positions, most noteably on my sides with one leg raised. She said it would help draw Snowdrop down into my pelvis and get things moving. It totally did! I was progressing quite well.

Around 4:30pm they checked me again and I was past 7cm! I was excited as I had not progressed past 7 with the girls… so this was a good sign. I decided to close my eyes and let Mother Nature do her thing. A little less than an hour later, I woke up when Singing Nurse Winnie came in to check me. I was 9.75cm!!!!!!! I could hardly believe that I was hearing when she said “Well, it’s time to push.” The nursing team hating he videotaped already brought in all the equipment we’d need for when Snowdrop came out so the room was ready. Nurse Winnie had me push a couple times and called my doctor.

My doctor called me a “SuperStar Pusher” and Winnie had us chuckling more or less the whole time. It was hardly as I had imagined it. The room was quiet other than our small talk and chuckling and the 1 to 10 counting from Winnie. There was only Hubby, my doctor, and Winnie present in the room… until the very last few pushes of course when the rest of the team came in for the BIG MOMENT!!!

After 39 minutes of pushing, a poppedย tailbone (possibly broken, definitely stillย painful now in postpartum recovery 5 weeks later), and my husband insisting he videotape me (no nether-region taping, just video footage ofย my face & of Snowdrop being placed on my stomach), our little Snowdrop was born!!!

She was born at 6:04pm and weighed 7lbs 2oz and was 19 inches long. Ten fingers, ten toes, and as healthy as can be. She’s just perfect. Other than not having red hair, of course! (Ha. Ha. Ha.)

I’m so excited to have gotten my VBAC. It was so important to me. I believed I could do it, and with a medical team that supported my wishes – we made it happen! (To First Time Mom C-Section Ladies:ย Don’t fear repeat c-sections -> if you’re a good candidate for a VBAC, you just might be able to have one next time!!! :)) I was so surprised at the length of time I pushed – I was expecting to be pushing for at least two hours. It was like tunnel-vision when I was pushing and until Snowdrop came out. There was nothing else on my mind really other than push, push, push! I only had a minor tear that required a couple stitches. My doctor said it was so tiny I didn’t really need stitches but that she was going to stitch it up anyways to be on the safe side. (And I tore UP, not down like I expected would happen. Which by the way, makes it hurt even more like a mother when you pee… yikes!!)

I guess that’s about it. The In-Laws brought Juniper & Magnolia over to visit about two hours later. Snowdrop was still on the warming bed. The girls said hi to their little sister then they were ready to leave. Magnolia goes “Ok Gigi. Let’s go now.” It was so cute. Despite their lack of interest the day the baby was born, both Junie & Mags are SO interested in the baby now. They love to kiss her hello in the morning and goodnight at bedtime – throwing fits if they don’t get to kiss the baby. It’s so adorable! They’re great big sisters, we feel so lucky for this!!

So that’s about it as far as the birth story goes. Snowdrop will be FIVE weeks old this Wednesday (Oooo Eeee… What up with that? What up with that?) I can’t believe it’s already five weeks. Time flies when you’re getting no sleep and feel like a zombie. Oh, and I’ve been breastfeeding her which has been going okay. I’ll post about that soon enough, too. It’s been going okay, other than the painful infection I developed in my left boob this past week. I’m on antibiotics so that’s helped but I’m supposed to be pumping & dumping the one side (per Doctor, even though I’ve heard from everywhere else that I can still nurse on the infected side. I so confused.). The other side is having trouble keeping up the supply & demand from Snowdrop. Bah. I know, woe is me, things could be worse.

My computer is still fried. I’ve been super busy (duh) with the kids but I’m really hoping to have more time to blog in the near future. Hope everyone out there on the Interwebs is doing well!!!


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Snowdrop Has Arrived!!! :)

Little Miss Snowdrop arrived December 30th at 6:04pm after a very successful induction – I even got my VBAC!!!! (YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!) She weighed 7lbs 2oz and was 19 inches long! She’s so beautiful even though she doesn’t have red hair! We were SO surprised by that!!

I’ll have to write up the birth story another day. We’re exhausted. I’m exclusively breastfeeding so… it’s been a lot of work getting it together and getting used to it. But we’re getting the hang of it, so that’s good.

Snowdrop is doing so well and we’re just so very happy to have her here with us!! Junie & Mags are so fantastic with her – they are such great big sisters. It’s so lovely to see them all together. I’m so lucky to have such a wonderful family. Hubby has been a Godsend this past week – I could not have survived without him!

Will write soon! ๐Ÿ™‚

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Getting Nervous…

I’m getting nervous.

Wednesday (today is Monday) we’re scheduled to arrive at the hospital at 7:30am to begin the induction. I’m so nervous. Am I making the right decision? I trust my doctor, completely, when she says that she feels comfortable inducing any time after 39 weeks. I’ll only be exactly 40 weeks (well, 40 based on the ultrasound, 39w5d based on my LMP). I trust that Snowdrop is ready to come out and that we haven’t flaked on the due date by a month. I’m worried that getting the Pitocin will be so painful that I’ll have to get the epidural. Last labor, I got the Pitocin and the epidural and hardly remember a thing after that point. My brain/consciousness doesn’t mix well with painkillers. And after I got the P/E, my labor essentially stopped progressing and Juniper freaked out and I had to get a c-section. But I’ve read so much from other women who weren’t progressing, got the epidural, and went from 5cm to 10 cm in two hours! What will happen this time around? I do not know. I hope I get a little Pitocin, dilate to a 10, and am able to push Snowdrop out instead of getting a c-section.

Am I doing the right thing? :/

I got a fortune in a fortune cookie the other night that read “Lucky you make this choice. Everything comes out for the best”. So… that’s a good sign, right? Slightly reaffirming, I suppose. ๐Ÿ™‚

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The End is Near!!!

I went to my doctor yesterday for my 39 week appointment. First of all, I can’t believe it’s been 39 weeks… I can’t believe I’ve made it THIS FAR… It’s so awesome and strange at the same time! ๐Ÿ™‚

Everything was normal as usual. Good heartbeat, measuring fine, no real complaints from anyone. WELL… other than the fact that I weigh 152 pounds. I believe it’s a combination of a couple things: the large pasta lunch I ate prior to my appointment, the $2.50 gallon of Chocolate Edy’s Ice Cream calling out to me at Target this weekend, and being on the receiving end of many gifts of Christmas Cookies. ๐Ÿ™‚ It’s my fault, I should not have eaten all those cookies… and I probably should have refrained from all the delicious food we’ve been eating this week as well.

I’d say that I’ll stop eating cookies until the baby is born… but we all know that would be a lie. In fact, I intend to do as I please (but not go overboard) until next Wednesday. My doctor said that anytime after 39 weeks, she feels comfortable inducing and that if I wanted to go ahead and schedule one we could do that! I left the appointment and ran some errands and within an hour had decided that yes, I wanted to schedule an appointment! I’m really ready to have this baby and I’m confident that the baby is mature enough to be born. After having twins at 35w5d with very, very, very minimal health issues… I do feel that Snowdrop is ready. So after discussion with Hubby and my In-Laws on the best time for them to watch Junie & Mags… we decided December 30th, next Wednesday, is the day! It’s my original due date (based on the ultrasound; based on LMP it’s Jan 1st but I’m super irregular so that could be wrong anyways…).

I can’t believe I’m being induced!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m SUPER nervous about it. I really hope it all goes well, smoothly, and that I’m able to have a VBAC afterall. I’m nervous that I’ll tear and ruin myself… but I’m more nervous to have another c-section. It wasn’t the worst experience in my life – but I REALLY don’t want to do it again. It was truly more the drugs than anything else associated with it. The morphine, the epidural, the after-surgery drugs… just not my thing and I really hated the way it made me feel. I really hated the way I felt on them… I can hardly remember anything that happened after I got the epidural… and the morphine? Yikes. Never again – fingers crossed, of course! It was just really scary to me. Drugs are scary.

[Yeah, I know I’ve written plenty about my past (and likely future) experiences with marijuana… and I know plenty of people would care to disagree with my views on it… but marijuana is completely different than morphine, etc. Marijuana isn’t any more of a drug than alcohol or tobacco. Morphine and all those after-surgery drugs I had to have, however, are scary. Ah, another post for another day.]

ANYWAYS…. I’m super nervous about the VBAC but I’m SUPER EXCITED about bringing Snowdrop home. It will be exhausting to have a newborn but so nice to have her out of my belly and into my arms. Recap: I’m getting induced on Dec 30th, that’s this coming Wednesday… unless she decides to make an appearance earlier than that. I’d really like for her to be born on December 27th – it seems like a fine day to be born. Just long enough after Christmas to allow for a day of rest between holiday festivities and then birthday festivities, right?

The end of this pregnancy is truly in sight now… I know I am blessed to be able to carry my own child in my very own womb & I’m very thankful for being able to experience the miracle that is LIFE – but it’s time for her to come out! ๐Ÿ™‚

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C-Section vs VBAC?

My doctor is a supporter of either option I choose. She says I’m a good candidate for a VBAC because my previous c-section was mainly due to my not progressing after 18 1/2 hours of labor, the twin factor, & Baby A freaking out. So basically, it’s totally up to me to decide.

Oh, good. It’s so easy for me to make decisions. (Sarcasm Font Needed Here.)

When I had the girls, I went into the hospital with every intention of birthing them vaginally with no drugs at all. The labor pains weren’t terrible. (Seriously. I only progressed to 7cm before I stopped progressing & Baby A freaked out. Don’t hate me for not being in a ton of pain. Don’t get me wrong, it hurt – but it wasn’t awful or unbearable. It wasn’t the type of pain I’d need medicine for. It was more of a…. very uncomfortable hurting. Again, don’t hate me if you thought labor was the most painful EVER. Sidenote: Also, I rarely if ever get cramps before my period. Sometimes I think this attributed to why I didn’t progress. Maybe my lack of cramps had something to do with not having strong enough contractions to open me up?? I do get massive backaches before and after my periods so I’m not without some awful period pain…)

So like I said, labor didn’t hurt so bad. I’m not afraid of pushing a baby out my vag… I’m more afraid when I read things like my c-section uterine scar could rupture. Or, I could tear all the way through to my butthole. YUCK. OUCH. That just sounds… awful. I also don’t like the word “episiotomy”… Mainly, the rupturing is what got me questioning the whole VBAC. I’m not comfortable with the word “rupture” ESPECIALLY if it pertains to something inside my body. I just don’t like the sound of it! Based on my last “trial of labor”… my body wasn’t having it. Maybe I’m too tiny to birth a baby naturally… in which case I’d end up having a c-section after sitting in labor for another 18 hours or so.

If I DO go ahead with a VBAC, I don’t want drugs. I want to do it au naturale. A la prarie girls of the olden days…

A c-section, I’ve done. I’m “experienced” in that realm. The recovery was not fun… it took a good 8 weeks before I felt “normal” again. But it’s only 8 weeks of my life. My scar isn’t bad at all, it had practically disappeared before I got pregnant this time. I’m not really concerned about the scar anyways. So I’ve got a “battle wound”, good for me. I’m not posing for Playboy anytime soon and Lord knows I won’t be in a bikini ever again so I really don’t mind about having a scar on my belly. Meh, Playboy could always airbrush it out. ๐Ÿ˜‰ I’ve also read that multiple c-sections aren’t good for the body (that makes sense, really) and that many doctors won’t perform more than three c-sections on a uterus because it gets too risky with each one. I haven’t discussed this with my doctor but I don’t want to just say “Okay, only one more baby after this!”… it’s not really up to me how many kids we have. Hubby and I have placed God in charge of that. He’s done a fine job so far! Thanks, Man! ๐Ÿ™‚ I also really don’t like the idea of choosing my kid’s birthday – I want her to come when she wants to. I like the surprise of it all.

A c-section is more expensive than a vaginal birth. But if I attempt a vaginal birth and end up with a c-section it’s more expensive than going with a c-section in the first place. I know I shouldn’t let money decide what happens… but I can’t help but be aware of the costs of delivering a baby. We have insurance but it’s still going to be a f*ck on our savings.

Anyone out there have a VBAC? Or went through this same thing? I’d love to know how it all worked out. I have no idea what to do. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Halfway There!!!

I’m 20 weeks today!!!!!

Baby has been moving A LOT lately. This is of course, awesome. ๐Ÿ™‚ Hubby has managed to catch a few punches & kicks but for the most part, Baby waits until his hand is off my stomach to continue moving. Silly Baby. ๐Ÿ™‚ According to Babycenter.com my baby is about the size of a banana from head to toe. That’s so BIG!!! I hope he or she is growing well in there.

I’m getting bigger. I think I weighed 118 at my last appointment. This, I am appalled by, but I guess this is how pregnancy goes. I hope to be back below my pre-pregnancy weight by April (95-105, hey I’m little!). Hubby says that I’ll be back to normal a month after I’m done healing from the c-section. We’ll see about that. It’s nice that he’s so optimistic but I’m not buying it. Haha. ๐Ÿ™‚

I’m pretty sure, not positive, that I’m going to elect to have a c-section again. My doctor said I could go ahead with a VBAC… part of me wants to, the other part says no. I’m just not sure. I had the c-section with the twins for several reasons, mainly that I wasn’t progressing past 7cm after 18 1/2 hours of labor (14 1/2 of which were spent without drugs, I didn’t need them then either but… I was tricked into thinking I did, long story…), and that Baby A (Juniper) became very distressed and they thought the best option would be to take them out ASAP. We laugh now about that last one because Junie sure is our baby that gets frustrated easily. I’m not surprised she got upset during labor. ๐Ÿ™‚

So I have a decision to make about that. I really hate the idea of choosing my baby’s birthday. I want it to come when it’s ready to come out, you know? And being due Jan 1st, that means I’d have to choose a date between Christmas & New Years. What a crummy time for a birthday! If the baby came naturally, maybe it would come when it was supposed to -> January 1st. What a lovely day, I think. ๐Ÿ™‚

So if I have to choose a date, which date do I pick? I’m leaning towards Dec 27-30th. I don’t want to do it Dec 26th for obvious reasons. And no offense to my offspring but New Years Eve is one of my two favorite holidays and I don’t want to feel badly about leaving my child on its birthday every year so I can party. Seriously, it’s one of two days a year that I actually let go & have fun! ๐Ÿ™‚ SO…. I’m left with Dec 27th-Dec 30th. The 27th is on a Sunday, a nice day to be born but then my Hubby would have to take the WHOLE week off work (well, most of it anyways… I suppose he could make some service calls between hanging out with me at the hospital – yes, I’m one of those who want their Hubby there as much as possible during my stay). So, thinking of his work (he works for his dad, so really it wouldn’t matter anyways…but still…) then Dec 30th (a Wednesday) would be the best day to choose because we could schedule it later in the day so he could work in the morning, and only have Thurs/Fri off, and then hopefully I’ll be back home by Sunday. I have no idea what to do.

And then there’s the VBAC. I WANTED to have the girls naturally – no drugs, no surgery, etc. That didn’t work out in my favor so this is my chance to do it. How COOL it would be!!! However. What if I didn’t progress again past the 7cm. What if something went wrong and my vag was destroyed forever? I’d be disappointed. What if something went wrong and I had to have an emergency c-section? I’d be disappointed. My friends who have had children naturally (ie. With drugs and Through the vag) (okay, there are three of them) – all had horrific births. Okay, maybe horrific isn’t the right word. One baby came out practically sideways, another girl had a TON of stitches, one just had a very unpleasant time. They said everything goes back to normal but… I’m not sure I buy that. My c-section was no fun recovering from… but to risk sharing too much information, I’m still super duper tight & I want my vag to stay that way. So does Hubby. ๐Ÿ™‚

Any thoughts regarding birth days, scheduling c-sections, and VBACs?

Braxton Hicks – I’ve been having them. Since 18 1/2 weeks. It’s not all the time, probably twice to three times a day & three or four days a week. Of course, they come more often when I’m out running errands, or home cleaning the floors instead of resting. I just CAN’T sit and do nothing these days. It was easier when I was pregnant with the twins to just sit around and be lazy. But now, there’s always stuff to clean up, laundry to do, cups to wash, little girls to entertain…. I really like getting them out of the house and since we’ll be in the house much more when the baby comes, I feel like I need to get them out as much as possible until then. I’ll probably go into labor at Nordstroms if I keep this up. Anyways, I thought Braxton Hicks came later. I did a little research and it’s possible to have them sooner with second & later pregnancies… I’ll mention this to my doctor next time but it’s only slightly concerning as I’m having dull low back pain as well. That is a pre-labor sign. But I ALWAYS have the dull low back pain, not only when the BH’s come… so I’m not sure. Is this normal pregnant stuff, or pre-labor stuff?? Who knows. I’m trying not to let it concern me, but like I said, I’ll mention it to the doctor next time. I don’t want the baby to come TOO early. A little early is okay but I’m still only 20 weeks along and this muffin has some more cooking to do. ๐Ÿ™‚

We find out August 31st if its a boy or a girl! And we’ll have the big ultrasound that day to determine number of arms, legs, heads, etc… We’re hoping it has two working kidneys as Magnolia only had one working one in utero and her second non-working kidney never developed and has since disappeared from her body. (The one working one is doing much better, I’m not sure if I ever wrote about that. If not, I should put that on my list of things to write about…hm….) However, we’re much better prepared this time for kidney issues are we’re more familiar with it. That’s the good part about having a second baby with kidney issues – it won’t be as scary! A little scary, but not as much as the first time around.

I can’t wait for everything. ๐Ÿ™‚


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